Gnawing Solitude

Loneliness is eating from inside
Even the world around is opaque, airtight, freezedried
Those mouth corners sagging dryly
Desire swallowing lifeforms whole
A look away, a look down, look through
Blank, Absent
Robots with nerve endings,
Puppets under a spell
Drama Queens and Kings.
Ah! Walking among hundreds,
Maybe thousands
Yet no one is here,
Earthquake Isolation has hit again,
Emptiness is reigning
Madness crawling nearer
I crumble like snail [...]

The Path

Immersed in an ocean of pain and bitterness,

Alone I stand and wait

Each wave impatiently drowning my nostrils

I lose balance, sway and suffocate.

Flowing through my veins, Sadness, Fear and Despair

become tainted by the taste of the seven seas,

The sorrows drowned in pills and whisky are now drowning me.

Immensity of sentiments taking the mind over,

The lines are blurring, the tears, the screams, are they really mine?

Finally, Loving and Loathing become One

No more pretendending, I’ve fucked the Fine Line!

Like a puppet without strings I get thrown about

I try to cry but cannot catch my breath

Each layer of pain fully flickers on my face

How could one man bear such atrocity?

How could ONE soul perceive my identity?

I thought I’d swim it but didn’t realise

How impossibly distant true happiness lies

Nevermind the rest of them happily ignoring

The Death of a Friend, a Flower, a Country!

I thought I’d get it my way

But the current is too strong,

My pact with the devil is fully exposed,

So come… come, please come,

Come and drown with me.

Walk Away

 

Don’t just look at me leaving!

Your eyes like a silly puppy,

like that beaten up child,

this glance of powerlessness and abandon,

this glance that says I wish but I can’t.

Is there anybody living in this world?

Desperation to understand, to rationalise, to know,to explain,

Intellectual Conclusion Scientific Evidence

It’s just a big lie! In fact, THE big LIE.

You have no ears.

Your eyes can’t see.

You think you feel but you’re just drifting.

I hate.

Who? Me? … Where am I?

Anchored? Stuck? Waiting and Crying.

I raise my hand for help,

but I get a tap on the head.

“You’ll be alright”

Of course I will.

What else is there to be?

Letting my dreams burn,

hopes and wishes collapsing,

My desires evaporate

My life is walking away.

Away from this world who no longer sees,

This world of misunderstandings and petty feelings

This world I so wanted to be mine has now become static.

Nothing moves.

Just giggles and a beer.

Plasters and Make Up.

Condoms and Vomit.

And slowly I die.

Away from the looks and gossips.

Far from those I once loved and cherished.

Far from those who forgot to Love me.

There is no one there.

Anywhere.